From the recording Face in the Dark
Lyrics
How I wish I could make a difference to you
What a difference it would make if you wanted me to
But I made a mistake, a big one, with you
Would it be different if we had kept it all in the family, Ruth?
Give it away, your trust and your polyjuice
Before I turn into a hangman’s noose
There’s skin in the game, and you only want me to lose
Like I could walk away from family, Ruth.
She only took half of me
And gave her body back to me
When all that I wanted was her heart
But she never knew it
She never knew me at all
Oh, she never knew it
I couldn’t do it at all
How I wish I could make it better
Would it be better if we weren’t talking second chances
When I never really got my first one?
This time I’ll do one better to make it all better
I promise to
I’d give you my brain if I knew it would help me to prove
That it was always more than sexual with you
Give me your shame and I’ll give you a reason to brood
And make your senses go hysterical, Ruth
I’d give you the blame if I only could blame you
‘Cause you were more than just somebody I’d used
And I’d get in the game, but you’d only want me to lose
Or you could lose it on account of me
And I’d do what I can to make you proud of me
You know I’d never walk away from family
‘Cause I could never walk away happily, Ruth
Don’t ever walk away from family
Oh, Pamily
Don’t ever walk away from family, Ruth
You’d think she’d take all of me
No, how small of me
Keep it all in the family, Ruth
She never knew it, I never told her at all
How I wish I could make it different.
Ruth lyrics © Cave of Voices